In today's reflection from the Living Gospel Fr. Scott Hurd speaks about the hope Mary's Immaculate Conception should be for each of us. Mary's life provides us a peek at what might have been had Adam and Eve never bitten of the apple. If the human condition had not lead to the choice of sin instead of allowing itself to be filled with God's grace. Fr. Scott points out that on the surface this could seem like an occasion for great regret and despair over what is loss, however we are to rejoice in the what is possible and what is to come in our life with Christ in heaven.
How many regrets I have in life - I can't imagine I am the only one. I do not regret my choice of husband or having my 3 beautiful children, but I have many regrets relating to those choices. What if I had not married at 21, but waited until I had finished college and had a better job, would we still 25 years later be struggling financially from the debt accumulated from the poor decisions made in our immaturity and in some cases, necessity. For my children, I worry if I should have pulled them from school sooner to homeschool them, and other days I wonder did I do the right thing in taking them out at all. There are moments I can see clearly the many blessings of our decision and others days, as with all decisions, there are days I wonder if I heard the directions from the Holy Spirit correctly. I won't even go into my thoughts on college, career and my early faith life.
This reflection was sparked by these words from the Living Gospel Daily Devotions for Advent:
Through Jesus, we can hope that the perfection Mary enjoyed on earth might be ours to enjoy one day in heaven. This makes today's feast not an occasion of longing and regret, but a celebration of gratitude and hope. ~ Fr. R. Scott Hurd
I am so grateful for God's word, it is there I am reminded that I can not live in the past, or even concern myself with it because I can not go back to change it. I can learn from it but I need to move on from it because to be cliched, "what is past is past". Yet God's word provides me great hope, just as Fr. Hurd's words in today's reflection. I will celebrate in what God is doing and what God WILL DO ... and I will remember his promise in Romans 8:28 - regardless of my choices, in response to my love for him, He will bring some good from it. While my finances may be shambles because I married young, my marriage is one of my greatest accomplishments and it is abundantly rich in love!! Whether my kids were suppose to be home or not, I have the most amazing memories that I would never trade, and I entrust their futures to God. He created them, he knows their purposes, and he will do good with them according to HIS plan and purpose, in spite of me!!
Jesus, I trust in you ... and through the amazing model of your Mother Mary, I know this trust will always garter great HOPE! There is no regret bigger than the LOVE Of God can overcome!! None.