Who Do You Have to Forgive
truth is, we all have someone to forgive(1)," writes R. Scott Hurd, in the very beginning of his life-changing book Forgiveness: The Catholic Approach ("Forgiveness").
The following is Scott's list of people we may need to forgive; the comments in the parentheses are my two cents.
1. Rude drivers (very appropriate for those of us who live in Massachusetts)
2. Spouses (thank goodness for Sacramental Grace - that is all I have to say!)
3. Friends (they can hurt or betray us, or over time may become our "frenemies")
4. Bosses (those who steal our ideas, treat us unjustly, or are just plain grumpy)
5. Bullies (even as adults we can find ourselves faced with cruel people)
But Wait, There's More!
I would add:
1. Ourselves (often the hardest person to forgive)
2. God (It is okay to admit this, He will not send down lightning to smote you for being honest.
Furthermore, let's face it: He already knows you are angry. If He created your brain, don't you think He can also read it!?)
We cannot begin the healing process if we do not first acknowledge that we need to forgive, and then identify who that person is. I have encountered people at my retreats and presentations on forgiveness who admit they really can't think of anyone they are angry with. However, when I start going through this list, I often see that light bulb moment as someone comes to mind. Usually, the welling of tears and nods of agreement come when I mention needing to forgive ourselves.
"Without exception, we’ve all been hurt by others; without exception, our faith invites us to forgive those who hurt us."(2)
The Power of a Good Confession
Many years ago, I went to Confession very angry with a situation and the one person in particular that I felt was responsible for the whole mess. I purposely sought out a priest that was also a friend, because I was seeking more for validation for my anger than to be forgiven of my sins. I sat down facing my friend, ready for consolation in this situation...and instead, I got this:
Priest: You know what you are, Allison? A monkey with an orange.
Allison: Well, interesting Father, I've been called many things, but have to say this is the first for this particular moniker.
Priest: Let me explain.
Allison: OH, please do!
Priest: There is a story that says in Africa, the natives use a technique to catch monkeys. They hollow out one end of a coconut and they put an orange inside. The monkey puts his hand in the coconut and when he makes a fist to grab the orange, he's trapped. The natives will pull a string attached to the other end of the coconut and capture the monkey.
Allison: Something tells me you aren't going to support my not forgiving this person?
Priest: No, for your own good, and the good of that other person, I won't be backing you on this one.
Coming to Terms with my Orange
Over time I became so comfy with my orange that I forgot how to let go and even FEARED the consequences if I were to let go. In letting go, I wondered if I would be handing that person a victory over me or something even worse. If I forgave them without an apology or punishment, would I be letting them "off the hook"? Certainly, I could never do that--right, after all they had done? No, this orange was mine and with that, I tightened my grip.
Only Hurting Myself
But really I was only hurting myself. Perhaps I held on so long because there was a part of me that felt at fault and was no more able to forgive myself than those others involved. Obsessing over the situation, instead of turning it over to be covered by God's grace, was certainly not helping nor changing anything. As R. Scott Hurd notes in "Forgiveness," recent scientific studies confirm the healing power of forgiveness. They conclude that people who forgive live longer, healthier, and happier lives; furthermore, he reminds us, when we can't forgive, "we also deny ourselves God's forgiveness," and "the abundant life Jesus invites us to share."
What Is In It For Us?
As a kid I suffered from awful stomach issues. I had a battery of tests. The final diagnosis was a 'nervous stomach'. My young life was in turmoil, and because I could not properly process my feelings they manifested themselves physically within my body. The mind is a powerful thing, and those repressed or obsessed behaviors and feelings can emerge as physical ailments. Jesus did not come to leave us slaves to this world or even our own minds, he came to give us an abundant life. Forgiveness, especially when coupled with the Sacrament of Reconciliation, can be incredibly healing.
Scott Hurd punctuates this healing with this wonderful quote from Pope St. John Paul II: "The liberating encounter with forgiveness can be experienced even by a wounded heart, thanks to the healing power of God, who is love." Forgiving and being liberated doesn't happen overnight. A heart filled with bitterness, malice, and rage is not capable of living an abundant life. It is indeed liberating to let God transform your heart and to open yourself to experience forgiveness.
What Else Was I Failing to Do?
Once I acknowledged the real struggle I was having with forgiving, I followed through on my penance–which, by the way, was praying for that other person. Although I wanted to pray, “Dear Lord, change them,” I realized Father T was teaching me how to forgive, heal and move on with this important step. Instead, I prayed, “Lord, please bless this person with every grace and blessing I would ask for myself and more.” This simple act worked miracles on my heart. My life was no longer consumed by painful memories and bitterness. By cooperating with the grace of God, my heart healed and learned how to forgive.
(1) and (2) Hurd, R. Scott Forgiveness: A Catholic Approach. Boston, MA: Pauline Books and Media, 2011.
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Good Advent Reading
For Advent (2013) I read When Faith Feels Fragile by R. Scott Hurd. His book, "Forgiveness: The Catholic Approach" has been an instrumental part of the women's retreats I offer on forgiveness. I honestly can not imagine what my life would be like if I had NOT discovered that book when I did!!
When Faith Feels Fragile is Scott Hurd's second book (fast forward ... Around the Table his most recent publication (Ave Maria Press) will be featured onA Seeking Heart the 2nd week of December!) and when I heard of the release I was more than eager to dive in!! I love Scott's easy to read, right to the core of the matter, touches the heart style of teaching of the faith. This book is organized into 40 short chapters, making it a perfect companion for Advent/Christmas as well as (of course) for Lent.
Chapter One, was so thought provoking, my hand-written journal entry was almost as long as the chapter. Here are the abridged version of my thoughts:
Impediments to developing or maintaining a stronger faith
Speaking of grace:
** GRACE: The undeserved, yet freely given gift of God's Holy Spirit within us. In that Spirit we are better able to accept God's call in our lives - a call to be holy because He is holy and to positively respond to His Will in our lives. All we need to do is be open to receive it and cooperate with it. (Allison abridged definition)**
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