Do you remember your first diet?
I do. I was in 8th grade. It was 1980-something and DEXATRIM was in abundance at the local K-mart. No one checked your ID or cared about your age, though back then I did look much older than my 13 years. Fun Fact: I even stumped a traveling Carny at the "If I Can't Guess Your Age, YOU win a Prize" booth; for the record he guessed 22, and I was only 14 -- oh, my poor parents!
I was reminded of that diet and the countless ones that came after it as I read the following words from Mary DeTurris Poust, in her book from Ave Maria Press, Cravings: A Catholic Wrestles with Food, Self-Image, and God:
"It's amazing what we can do to ourselves, isn't it? We can hang our self-worth on five or ten pounds, or a pant size, or a false image we see in a magazine or on TV."
She then goes on to quote her Aunt Louise (**I have one of those too!! She's 91 now. She is my godmother and I am her namesake (can you guess my middle name!) She is the spunky matriarch of my family and so beloved- but I digress) ... speaking on the connection between food and dieting these very insightful words:
"Dieting and food are definitely connected to how I feel about myself and my life. If I can control my eating, I feel good; I think I look good. that's probably the key. If I'm in the control of my eating, I'm in control of my life, and then I can accomplish whatever I want because I feel no one can beat me down."
Personally, control is a goal. Although as Mary points out "control [is] that ever-elusive dream." I still find myself striving for it - and not just with food. In my dealings with finances, temptations, mothering and even my destiny.
Mary goes on to remind us,
"We all crave it, and yet our faith reminds us that we're never really in control. We may try to convince ourselves otherwise, but usually we find out the hard way that even our best attempts to steer every last detail of our lives won't give us what we're seeking."
So today's lesson and point to ponder on this journey of wellness - putting behind all these false ideals and harmful thought processes, and "PUT OURSELVES in God's hands." Those are pretty good hands to be in - if we are going to trust God, I guess it is time we TRUST God.
I am going to implement a NEW prayer before meals -- not as I am sitting down, but as I am feeling either hunger pangs or find myself thinking about food. Purposefully, asking God into that part of my life - which I think it pretty evident up until now - has been off limits. A quick prayer to help me identify if I am really hunger, and if so, to help me find ways to satisfy that hunger in healthier ways. I might even add a little something about helping me overcome the cookie monster within (*maybe)!
Food is for the stomach and the stomach is for food,
A year ago, I was not only blessed to read Cravings; but also to spend some time with Mary DeTurris Poust on A Seeking Heart:
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